i don’t know what to do anymore.
i don’t feel anything.
i have no motivation whatsoever and i can’t find motivation. i can’t bring myself to care about this. i am honestly wasting my time here at program. the only person that can make a change is myself and i don’t have the willingness or motivation to do it.
i know that i am making zero progress.
i am not doing this for myself.
i meet with my therapist tomorrow and i just need to tell her that i’m clueless and feel no motivation and that i honestly don’t care. i don’t know how to get to that point of wanting to make a change and being motivated and positive, but i’m just not.
i have a feeling that they are going to push for residential treatment. but that’s not going to make a difference either if i’m not motivated.
i’ve been at this place for 2 months and nothing has changed and i’m sick of it.